One Day at a Time

THE SERENITY PRAYER
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; the courage to change the things I can; the wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time; enjoying one moment at a time;
accepting hardship as the pathway to peace;
taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life; and supremely happy with Him forever in the next.

So the past few weeks have been pretty crazy. What I have learned... I fight to much to have things my way. God is so much bigger than my narcissism, and pride. What it comes down to is obedience, all he has asked us to do is to follow him. Lay down our life, take up our cross and follow him. Almost 2 weeks ago, a patient suicided, it was pretty hard for me and my colleagues. This past week, work was pretty difficult, high volume of patients, and high stress of course. Wednesday, my house was broken into, things were taken. All the while, I have been struggling with just letting go and obeying God, accepting his grace and forgiveness, and being patient for his timing that things will be come easier/less hectic. Well for once, I decided I would do all 3 things.
As of today, I am officially 1 week sober. (I joined the wagon finally) And to qualify this statement, I am not an "alcoholic." but I have been known to occasionally binge and abuse the sauce, and the past few weeks were a huge test in terms of healthy coping skills for stress, and a couple of times, all I could think about was the easy fix, the bottom of a bottle. I am not that person nor do I aspire to be, so I prayed and I know for an indefinite period of time this is what God is asking of me.
I am letting go of all the rest and placing it in God's hands. Since then, believe it or not, I feel better, happier, less anxious... Content. It is funny how that works.